I’m going to keep this essay as real and as honest as possible. I realized coming into my 24th year of life that I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t truly living how I wanted to; I made excuses for why I’m not where I want to be in life. Don’t let me misconstrue you, but 2016 had to be one of the crappiest years I think anyone has had to endure. I lost a car, I lost myself (mentally), I held onto things I had no control over and my heart was heavy the entire year. I was completely numb; a lost soul latching onto any ounce of possible life or happiness or fulfillment.
By November 15, 2017, my 25th birthday, I am going to be doing something that is fulfilling in regards to my plans as well as my happiness. I want to spend the rest of my life creating and being a part of things that I love. I want to inspire others during that process. “I” is my favorite word this year, because for once I am choosing to put ME first.
Everyday people are finding their calling and enjoying their lives, and I’m far too young to limit myself from living. In 2016, I held myself back from a lot of things for several reasons. I held myself back because of fear; fear that I wouldn’t have enough money to pay for a bill or a car; fear that I wouldn’t be successful. I held myself back due to judgement; “what if no one likes what I’m creating?” “what if my message isn’t getting delivered?” I held myself back because I was shy; “I mean I’m okay, I’m not the prettiest”. All of these factors were cop-outs; miniscule reasons that have deterred me from getting shit done.
I don’t know if this year has been a wake-up call in disguise, but from the moment I was fired this past January from a crappy full-time franchise job, the wheels have been turning in my head. I’ve laughed more, I’ve lived more, and I’ve become more social, all in the first month of not having this job. I’ve taken myself out to dinner, intrigued myself through the arts all on my own and I’ve become pretty damn fearless.
First of all, this job had nothing to do with my degree or the long amount of experiences that are included in my resume. I just needed money to be stable, but at this point in my life if I’m not incorporating my talents through the job, I don’t want it. I’ll always find a way to make some cash, but I refuse to get lost in a career that wasn’t made for me.
When you can’t sleep at night because there is a recurring idea in your head, you have to take that and run with it. Put it on paper, and make it happen. Don’t question it, Trust Your Path. The purpose of my platform is to show the world just how hard people my age are working. The men and women that will be featured throughout this platform are all self-starters that don’t thrive on hand-outs; they get things done on their own.
Everyone has a set path; it’s just a matter of figuring out your purpose and sticking to it. I have an immense love for people who are not only on their grind, but stay true to their-selves. This entire experience is to be a humbling one because I don’t expect much out of this besides the joy of knowing what I created shed light on a fellow entrepreneur.
My education cost me around $80,000, and I’d be a fool if I didn’t put that to use. Sometimes doing things by the book doesn’t necessarily work, you have to create your own full-fleged novel and share it with the world, page by page. This year has been all about growth, stability, and happiness. These are things that I plan to achieve abundantly throughout RakiyaG.com; enjoy!