Take a moment to close your eyes and breathe. Smell the air, feel the wind caress your face, exhale anything that's holding you back. Now check yourself.
I took my time with creating this platform because I wanted it to be important and meaningful to me. I wanted the pieces on here to resonate in your mind and make you understand that we are all human, and at times think alike. I'm selfish when it comes to something I love, so if something wasn't right, it wasn't being put into existence. I think patience is a virtue that many people overlook, when in actuality it's purpose is to benefit you in the long run; make you a better you.
On my journey of creating this platform, I was always asked by people "so when is your blog coming out?", and at first I was flattered to see people rooting for me, but I eventually became overwhelmed and actually dreaded the question. "It will be ready, when it's ready", became my answer to most; it came from a bitter, uneasy place because I felt like once I was asked, it was perceived as though I wasn't working. At this point I didn't want to speak on what I was creating. I was also annoyed by the rush of MY project.
Everything in life doesn't need to be rushed, and eventually people will understand that. This past summer, I was talking about a close friend and how they were getting shit done, and how proud I am of this person, and in the midst of this conversation, I was asked "So what are you doing with your life? Because clearly everyone's doing something except for you." Not only was I furious with that comment, but I was hurt... I actually ended up crying on the inside because for one the person that made this comment knew nothing about my life, my process, or my goal. That entire moment replayed in my mind and I became very cold for a while, I almost believed the person that said these words to me; I thought I wasn't doing shit.
You see, ignorance will never get you anywhere and until you find something that you're passionate about, you cannot speak on something you've never lived for. Like seriously ask yourself "What am I living for?" and if you say something generic or if you are extremely hesitant, then my dear you do not have a passion. I checked myself at this very moment, because in all honesty, I could've went completely out of character and served this person on a shiny gold platter solely with my words.
I gathered myself together and began to really evaluate where I want to go in life, and who did I want to touch with my words. That conversation only made me want to do better, and get more shit done. Before you knew it, I was knocking out articles and photo-shoots; really putting my baby together the way that I wanted to. I think this moment was a reality check for myself and only wanted me to create more and more.
Do not ever feel discouraged because you are not one to rush things. Past experiences have proven that rushing will only leave an end result that you are not essentially happy with. That's valid in all aspects of life. Take. Your. Time. Check yourself and proceed. I'd rather take a nice, long and thoughtful walk to appreciate the flowers rather than rushing to an end that hasn't fully grown yet, filled with weeds and thorns. Sometimes life calls for harsh moments that wake you up, and at that time you may undergo a whirlwind of emotions, but never be too harsh on yourself.
"What is meant for you, will be for you, and only you."