I took a much needed break and focused on prioritizing my life. I made a major decision and decided to move out and be an actual adult all on my own. The whole process of re-adjusting was surreal at first, but I am still getting in the swing of things. It's a comforting feeling to have a long day at work and then come home to your home. Your morning dishes that you left in the sink, your hairbrush that you left on the counter, your space.
Moving ignited a weird shift in the people that I found myself close with as both ends had a sudden disconnect. That process of understanding why there was a switch up in the first place bothered me for such a long time until I confronted each person one by one. It is imperative to check on those around you, however I believe in matching someone's energy, and if that isn't being reciprocated in return, I am not wasting it. Your energy is valuable, and it cannot be wasted on those that are not genuine or memorable. You have to understand that you cannot hold onto every person that you want to cherish; people outgrow each other as well as situations everyday; it's a part of life.
This is a period in my life where I am okay with letting certain habits go as well as people. Recurring patterns of disloyalty or trust or whatever you feel isn't right, isn't healthy. People get molded into doormats everyday and I refuse to follow suit. This month of moving has made me realize more intimate details about myself everyday little by little. I do not have the same mind set as I've had before; as many of my readers know, I say this a lot because we as people are forever changing! Life is constantly in motion. I've had a major life change and I've been nothing but appreciative of those who have been around me, supported me, and remained true to who they were to me.
I'm steadily finding my rhythm and adoring the person I'm becoming. Moving has caused a small reset mentally. I've clearly been spending more time by myself and I'm Loving IT. Upon moving, I was told that I'm going to discover things I didn't know about myself and I am honestly discovering things everyday. Your twenties is a time for self discovery, where you are understanding that you do not need any and everything. I am still pursuing my career, not worrying about things I have no control over, and still cautiously planning my every move. It is empowering to have something to call your own. Think about how you felt when you received your college degree years ago or even recently, or how you felt after getting your first car; it's humbling. To know that you put effort into achieving something is rewarding and negative thoughts/people mean absolutely nothing; those factors can never steal your shine. I'm happy to say that this accomplishment is motivating me to knock more things off of my list for the year and enjoy life the way that I'm supposed to.
More dope pieces to come!