On this day last year, September 24, 2017 at 12:00 PM, I published my very first post for my site. Leading up to that moment, I was very nervous, unsure, and worried of the outcome. I’ve always been known for being the book-smart girl in school, who loved to write, but it was only highlighted in grammar school. In high school, as well as college, I’ve definitely lost myself for the duration of those years; finished on time, and participated in internships here and there, but never really showed off my passion. I never had a voice for my self to show what I am capable of and within the last year, I’ve managed to not only go above and beyond my comfort zone, but to also find happiness from doing something that I absolutely love.
This platform has given me the strength to eventually turn the things that I’m dreaming of into a future accomplishment to add to my list. Starting literally from the bottom, with using the limited resources that I have has been so hard, but I vowed to remain consistent with my site, because I know what I want this platform to produce for me. I have an amazing foundation of close friends and family that have pushed and helped me throughout this last year that I couldn’t have been more grateful for. In those moments of pure weakness and discouragement, I am so happy to say that I have people in my life that have lifted me right back up with their words as well as actions. It’s always needed. Often times, you wouldn’t even know if I was feeling down or in a mood, but God always sends help with the acts of randomness and support from people that I absolutely love; they are ALWAYS on time, and you all know EXACTLY who you are.
Of course, I want to see myself win, but to have people in your corner who are rooting for you means the world to me. I’m creating not only for myself, but for these people who believe in me and are all on their own paths trying to succeed. I surround myself with creatives alike who are nothing but hungry and ready to grow. Being passionate about something is fulfilling, but at the same time it is hard to stay on track. People put their dreams to the side to provide for their current situations, and never fall back into doing what they love. Let’s be realistic here, our economy sucks, so having a normal 9 to 5 is needed if your passion isn’t funding your lifestyle as of yet. My advice is to never lose sight of the bigger picture. You know what you are existing for, so elevate within that.
Adulting is realizing that you can do everything by the book, and not get the expected outcome. In college, I was sure that I would have my cliche media job in NYC by the time I graduated, and I still haven’t even scratched the surface. I’ve lost count of how many jobs have denied me a position, and that has been the biggest pill to swallow, because I know that I am qualified. It makes me feel pretty low at times, but I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason, and I can’t question the timing of my life. I motivate myself everyday to go harder than the last and pave my own way organically. Yes, writing for a renowned publication is the goal, but what about having a renowned publication reach out to you to interview someone for their cover? The need is inferior compared to the want; I aim to be wanted, especially by the places/people that have denied me in the past.
Also, my focus is shifting into more pieces that reflect people of color. When I was in college, I just wanted a job. I didn’t care who I wrote for, what the content was about, I really didn’t know what I wanted besides to get paid. As I’ve had internships, and wrote the same type of stories for different publications, I realized that this wasn’t for me. If it isn’t culturally stimulating, I don’t want to be a part of it. There’s more to life than knowing what’s in your favorite fashion bloggers purse. I want to know the fashion bloggers journey, the actual struggle that it took to get to that current position. I want to create pieces that leave huge impressions on the reader.
I’m so excited for what is yet to come with this platform; this year honestly flew by. It’s my baby, and I’m raising it to be as powerful and insightful as possible. I really appreciate the people that have read my pieces monthly, left comments, and reached out to me personally to talk about what was said. These are the things that keep me going, because I’ve realized there’s a need to be heard. This second year of creating, is the year that I get a lot of shit done. I want to expand and shift the focus of my platform to show the lengths my creativity can go. To my readers that want to create something but are scared to do so, I need you to start your journey now; having something of your own brings peace that you didn’t even know was humanely possible. When I write, I’m happy. When I tell people that I write, I am happy. Transitioning from Blogger to Journalist, and you will see exactly how in this second year of creating. Thank you all for your endless support!
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